remembering.....

my cousin found out last week she is having another girl. i just saw a friends blog - they found out their 5th child is another boy (this will make 4 boys for them and 1 lone girl). our landlords find out tomorrow afternoon if they are having a boy or girl. as i hear of and see family and friends pregnant again i find myself getting a little jealous, knowing that we would LOVE to have more children, knowing the struggle it was just to have aud. but in the same breath........

as i hear about the news and anticipate our landlords news (assuming the baby cooperates, of course) i am struck by how absolutely grateful i am that we were able to experience that. we had truly lost hope that something like that would be in our future. and i'm remembering how we felt the night before our ultrasound - anxious to know if we would be blessed with a boy or girl, extremely grateful and humbled by either. and as we sat at the dining room table talking (and me crying), our front door opens and i hear the voices of my sister and my mom who drove 6 1/2hrs just to be there for the ultrasound. shocked is beyond where i was! the next morning comes, i drink coffee and had a donut (b/c someone told me to do that to get the baby moving - ha!), and we head to the doctors office. after a little while of them getting measurements and such she announces to us that we are having a girl. the first words whispered out of my mouth were "hi audrey hope" - i didn't even realize i had said this until afterwards when my sister told me. a precious, precious moment i will never forget.

so tonight i am so thankful and so blessed that we were able to experience that - that we were able to experience 9 healthy months of pregnancy - that we were able to experience a healthy childbirth - and that we are now able to experience a sweet (and sometimes not-so-sweet) little girl, who seems to be attempting to enter the "terrible two's" but we will take every last stage of her!!!

thank you Lord for blessing us with the experience we never thought we would have - and cannot put into words how grateful we are that You allowed it.